My Facebook status tonight seems to have caused some consternation. It said, "John - isn't too proud to admit that today I have more questions than answers and that God has some 'splainin' to do."
It's not a lack of faith or a lack of trust in God. It's simply an honest expression - "sometimes I just don't understand all that God is doing." That is especially apparent to me when dealing with people in crisis who are facing life changing circumstances. The easy platitudes and simple explanations don't wash in the midst of that kind of turbulence.
God's ways are far beyond my ways. My understanding is limited by my human finitude. Acknowledging that seems sensible. It seems reasonably "self-aware."
Today isn't a "crisis of faith." It's simply driven me to a place where I understand my need for God's wisdom and the understanding of the Spirit to a new degree. The answers that I want may never come. That's beyond my control, but I'm not going to be shy about seeking them. I want to understand God more and more as my life goes on. I want my walk to be steady progress in one "God-ward" direction. Seeking answers to difficult and troubling questions is an essential part of that.